Pain To Purpose: How Writing Helped Me Embrace God’s Plan
Writing to me is a relief. It’s a physical expression that helps me get myself together when I feel down, or when I’m in my feelings, where I reminisce about my pain and past experiences. Even in a situation that hurts, writing brings me peace, comfort, and its a simple way to care for myself. Let me share a part of my story where I had to take up the habit of writing to find peace within.
Rafiki once said, “The past can hurt, but the way I see it you either run from it or learn from it.”. Life isn’t so balanced, and this world scares me so much. I always said I want to live the rest of my life happy, grateful and optimistic without having setbacks, But when I look at the phases of things that happen and go on in every area of my life, it just gets me lost in my thoughts, and then I ask God, Can things get any better? When Dalai Lama said, “Let’s leave it all up to destiny,” I felt that.
My life is not so perfect, but I’m grateful for my existence and God’s endless blessings and protection over it. I know how hard I’ve fought battles and God has never taken his hands off me and I can boldly say His presence in my life is immeasurable. Losing my dear one is a pain that I find so hard to heal from, no matter how hard I try. It brings sadness and tears to my face. My worst nightmare and biggest fear. Lots of memories we’ve had since we were small that his last breath rings in my head that I can’t even wrap my head around it.
That being said, I realized that in this life, everyone hides under their shell, they show you their happy side, but deep down, we all have a story to tell. But how do I tell my story, or how do I find comfort and relief? Writing! Writing helps me in my down times, it relieves and eases my pain.
It can be so hard to share some level of pain with people, but by writing it down, I can easily express how I feel in my diary, which will never judge me. One thing I always tell people is, “The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us, but those who win battles we know nothing about.”
And then I lost it, I became helpless and vulnerable until I found a scripture, “John 14:16-18 which says, “I will not leave you helpless.”. Here I allowed God’s purpose in my life as I was losing it. I then realized that writing things down invited God’s wisdom and clarity into how I think, speak and live. I didn’t acknowledge the depth of emotions or name them openly, but I rather get so shelved down in my soul that I tend to put my thoughts and reactions of how I feel into words.
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Writing things down creates a safe space to talk to God about our hopes and dreams and our desires. The power of writing things down brings peace, it helps to free the mind from worrying about pain, burdens, what we forget or need to remember and things that we need to take off our mind to avoid depression. When my thoughts and pain consumed me with all the things that made me sad. I found peace in writing with God’s intervention, and he perfected all that concerned me (Psalm 138:8).
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